If this season feels heavier, it is because it is.
Because memory glows brighter against festive lights.
Because silence is louder when joy is expected.
And still—
You are here.
You are remembering.
You are loving.
That, too, is a kind of miracle.
Read Moremy body always knows
nothing is more predictable than time,
but calendars do not share any secrets with grief
We’re already getting Christmas cards in the mail. Countless photos of smiling families with healthy, alive children. I’ve stopped opening them. We never got a photo of the four of us for a Christmas card.
Read MoreOnly this truth:
Your baby lived.
Your baby is loved.
Your baby is remembered.
it’s just this time of year
when everything seems to be taunting me
or warning me
or consoling me
Child(ren). Child(ren)? No, no (ren). No Ren. Just the one child and no (ren). Just my son M and no Ren. I can’t figure out what I’m checking a box for. I authorize payment for my child but not for my Ren. He’s not here. He died. That means his body does not work anymore. I still can’t make sense of it. What a strange combination of symbols and letters. My Ren, my sweet boy, just an echo between parentheses.
Bereaved parents of lost babies and potential of all kinds: come here to share the technicolour, the vividness, the despair, the heart-broken-open, the compassion, and the other side of getting through this mess called grief.
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Parents of lost babies and potential of all kinds: come here to share the technicolour, the vividness, the despair, the heart-broken-open, the compassion we learn for others, having been through this mess — and see it reflected back at you, acknowledged and understood.
Thanks to photographer Xin Li and to artist Stephanie Sicore for their respective illustrations and photos.
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